how are you spending your time on earth ?
a brief stay on earth
8min 29sec film
because it was them; because it was me
48-page book (included as full pdf below)
feelings of sentimentality, nostalgia, and fleeting moments that leave us are encapsulated in this fragmented stream-of-consciousness film & photography book, where ideas surrounding a subconscious collective are explored through layering my collected personal memories and inviting others to share their own experiences and feelings evoked in response. a dog stretching in sunshine; wet pebbles and grit; foggy blends of purple and blue when your eyes are half-shut and your brain is half-there. what does this mean to you?
I feel my project has taken the path of something personal, and sharing feelings of not only loneliness but sentimentality of the moment; nostalgia, fleeting moments to grasp onto. Not every moment in the present feels like it will last as a memory, in fact many mundane and ordinary things pass us by to never be thought of again. The necessity of waking up, the routine of brushing teeth, the impulse to tie a shoelace when it comes loose.
Are these moments all worth savouring?
And yet, when it’s passed, and you look back at periods of time in your life, those small things really do capture the essence of that moment. In my first year of my BA, I only had one pair of shoes; velvet black Filas. And when I see pictures that I took back then, with that same shoe thrown in the corner of a room when I was trying to record the sun hitting a radiator – because why not, right – I am transported back into that time, that blink-and-you’ll-miss-it moment, where those were my only shoes, and I was just 19, moving out of home for the first time 300-miles away, struggling with the same lonely dissociative feelings I have now, 4 years later in Brighton and making this work. It brought to light how personal my work is and that desire to share it with the world, whether that’s through dreams, stories, or being a part of the unconscious collective (whether you like it or not). I wanted to share a moment when I was 22 and experiencing only a tiny part of my brief stay on earth – and to look back in another 4 years and feel all those same things, all over again.
A continuous cycle that goes on forever, because I am me, and I’m sentimental, that’s just how it is, and how I’ll always be.