Throughout my time at high school and university, I have found myself struggling to look after my mental health and I have often been left feeling hopeless, lonely, and overwhelmed by every aspect of life, which in turn has meant I have struggled. However, in May 2020 I received an answer to the issues that were growing inside of me in the form of an ADHD diagnosis. Although there are many negative connotations with ADHD, my life changed for the better and I am now left feeling a lot freer and more capable of looking after myself instead of bringing myself down for something out of my control. In the past, I have found that ADHD has stopped me from sharing with others how I feel, due to a fear of judgment from the recipient however, in recent years, I have discovered that showing my emotions creatively makes it much easier to share how I have been feeling, especially in the past 8 years.
Overwhelmed, loud, anxious and forgetful are some of the to explain my daily experience and although these may be symptoms in neurotypicals (the term used to describe those without a neurological condition), a way to describe it is by saying “It traps your brain in a never-ending spiral where you are constantly repeating the thought of a past situation” (The ADHD Centre, 2018), meaning everything feels a hundred times worse for 24 hours of the day.